Sunday, August 30, 2009

It's Real Now...

Obviously I've known for a while that I wouldn't be going back to SMC this fall for school, but it has really been hitting me these past few days...I helped my sister move in to her room yesterday and hearing all of my friends who are still at SMC chat about their classes (which start tomorrow) and their new living arrangements has really made it officially sink in for me...I'm really not going back!

It's sort of a hard feeling to explain, considering that I've been looking forward to being out of school for quite a while. I am excited to move on to my new job, glad that I don't have to do homework and happy to start meeting new people in Middlebury. But there will always be a part of me that feels like I belong at St. Mike's!

I will miss spending time with friends and roommates, eating in the dining hall, seeing familiar faces around campus and feeling completely comfortable in my surroundings. I will miss dance classes, English discussions, weekend entertainment and activities around campus. I will miss skiing for nearly free at Smuggs and seeing shows for next to nothing at the Flynn. Most of all, I will miss the supportive community that Saint Mike's was for me.

It's a strange feeling, knowing that I'll never be back as a student. But I'm happy with where the experience has me headed, and I know that during midterm week, I'll be laughing about ever wishing I might go back...

2 comments:

Christine said...

carrie!
I can relate to how you're feeling on the level that i'm not going back this semester. I just had a webcam session with all my friends and it brought a tear to my eye. But don't worry, life has bigger and better plans for you. and if that doesn't work out, there's always alumni weekend! miss you!

Danielle Casey said...

Carrie,

I was feeling nostalgic about not returning to SMC this fall, too, and was on the website looking around at everything I was missing. Came across your blog and made me think back to sitting next to you in senior sem! Good luck with the new job, you'll do great things!